Friday, July 02, 2004

[[The Big Love Test]]

I took this quiz n this is the result

5
FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.


~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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[[Story Written On By Me]]*|12:28 PM|

[[Akhirnya]]

Hari terakhir ITP seneng banget n kesel banget
seneng = akhirnyaaaaaaaaa
kesel = masa gua harus traktir mereka makan trus merekanya milihnya resto2 yg mahal lagi katanya ga mau yg murah2 nyebelin kan????

Capek + Kesel

*Sigh* ga tau harus gimana lagi jalanin idup kayanya ga berarti banget tapi yah pokoknya gua harus berusaha dech

Jia You! Jia You! Jia You!

[[Story Written On By Me]]*|12:15 PM|

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

[[A Very Sad Story!]]

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Jin.

I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we

went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him.

Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my

love for him.

And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each

other in different ways.

I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there

were so many other girls.

To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just

another girl…

"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.

"I can't"

"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment

grabbing me.

"No… I am going to meet a friend…"

He was always like that.

He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.

To him, I was just a girlfriend.

The word 'love' only came out from my mouth.

Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you'

before.

To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.

He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued

till 100 days…200days…

Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a

doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why…

Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …

Jin: What…don't drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.

Then he disappeared, like he was running away.

The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,

one by one. There were many…

Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.

When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,

and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.

But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was

dark… he still didn't call....

It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.

Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me

and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the

house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin…

Jin: Here…take this…

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What's this?

Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it

to you now. I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?

Jin: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.

He turned around and walked away like nothing had

happen.

Then I shouted…

"Wait…"

Jin: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…

Jin: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.

But he just said simple cold words and left.

"I don't want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you

are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."

That was what he said. Then he ran off.

My legs felt numb…and I collapsed to the ground. He

didn't want to say it easily…

How could he….

I felt that…

Maybe he is not the right guy for me…

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.

He didn't call me, although I was waiting.

He just continued handing me a little doll every morning

outside my house.

That's how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went to school.

But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on

a street…with another girl…

He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed

me…as he touched the doll…

I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my

room, and tears fell…

Why did he gave these to me…

Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…

In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.

Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.

He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.

I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.

I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,

that… it's going to end.

Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?

I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen

and joking around.

Soon, he held out the doll as usual…

Me: I don't need it.

Jin: What….why…

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.

Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't

want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike

other days, his eyes very shaking.

"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.

He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just

throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.

Then…

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted…

But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the

doll.

"Jin, move!"

HONK~!!

"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.

That's how he went away from me.

That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to

say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness

and the sadness of losing him…

And after spending two months like a crazy person…

I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we

started going out.

I remembered the days I spent with him and started to

count the days… when we were in love…

"One…two… three…"

That was how… I started to count the dolls…

"Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty

five…"

It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.

I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

"I love you~, I love you~"

I dropped the dolls,shocked.

"I….lo..ve…you??"

I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

"I love you~ I love you~"

It can't be!

I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

Those words came out non-stop.

I…love you…

Why didn't I realize that…....

That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.

Why didn't I realize that he love me this much…

I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach,

that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.

It had his blood stain on it.

The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…

"Jo…Do you know what today is? We've been loving each

other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't

say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you

forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you…

everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…"

The tears came flowing out of me.... Why? Why? I asked

god, why do I only know about all this now?

He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last

minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became

courage… to live a beautiful life….


It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose someone that you love with your useless pride !

I read this b4 but I deleted it and I juz got it again from my friend so I think it's better to post it here and share with u guys. Enjoy! ^-^

Comment: A very touching story.

Conclusion: I don't want to experience it coz it's horrible to be left alone by someone we love. On the contradictory, if someone u don't like keep plastering u, it'll be irritating!

[[Story Written On By Me]]*|12:57 AM|

Sunday, June 27, 2004

[[My Favourite Song for Today]]

Singer: Bellefire
Genre: Pop

SAY SOMETHING ANYWAY

Some say hearts
Grow silent
In a world where no one cares
Love keep slipping away
Some say time
Is the healer
But in a house where no one speaks
love keep slipping away

Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why do we play that same old song
Is it just because
We're lonely

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway

Some say tears
Run dry but
In my heart I've cried forever
Only you can take it away

Tell me
Why do we fight when we know it's all wrong
Why can't we see what's going on
Is it just because
We're lonely

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway

Anything to break the ice
Anything at all
Anything to break the ice
Anything at all

Love me, love me
But don't be sorry

(Oh), love me, love me
But don't be sorry
Help me, chase the shadows away (the shadows away)
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say (you've got nothing to say)
Say something anyway
Help me chase the shadows away
Love me, love me
When you've got nothing to say
Say something anyway.....

Comment: The lyric sounds pathetic actually i just like the tune but overall it's still a nice song!

[[Story Written On By Me]]*|3:12 PM|

[[*The Writer*]]

Name :Vicky: :Yanty: :Jing Xian:
B'day :28th Dec:
Mail :vickylim83@gmail.com:

[[*Music of My Heart*]]

Artist .:PussyCatDolls:.
Song .:Stickwitu:.

[[*My Past Memories*]]

|05/23/2004 - 05/30/2004|
|06/06/2004 - 06/13/2004|
|06/13/2004 - 06/20/2004|
|06/20/2004 - 06/27/2004|
|06/27/2004 - 07/04/2004|
|07/04/2004 - 07/11/2004|
|07/11/2004 - 07/18/2004|
|07/18/2004 - 07/25/2004|
|08/08/2004 - 08/15/2004|
|08/29/2004 - 09/05/2004|
|09/12/2004 - 09/19/2004|
|09/26/2004 - 10/03/2004|
|10/03/2004 - 10/10/2004|
|10/10/2004 - 10/17/2004|
|10/17/2004 - 10/24/2004|
|10/31/2004 - 11/07/2004|
|11/07/2004 - 11/14/2004|
|12/19/2004 - 12/26/2004|
|01/30/2005 - 02/06/2005|
|02/27/2005 - 03/06/2005|
|03/06/2005 - 03/13/2005|
|07/10/2005 - 07/17/2005|
|07/17/2005 - 07/24/2005|
|10/09/2005 - 10/16/2005|

[[*Leave ur Message*]]

[[*My Friends*]]

|Bridget|
|Pling2|
|Jennifer|
|Gabe|
|Nicholas|
|Shawn|
|Rou Hui|
|Huiqi|
|Ketsuki|

[[*Credits*]]

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